Building

I’m in school  to be a teacher, but I think I’m better off an architect

You see, walls are my specialty

I create them

Whenever I feel anything, I strategically, summarize and sway my mind into shape shifting  shallow emotions into strongholds of steel

Just in case someone is trying to steal my love

 

You see

Love and I  have a complicated relation

Sometimes love is like paper mache and that glue

It just sticks to me

And before you know it, my hard hat comes out

And I’m wholeheartedly handling the hijacks of highways love takes to get to me

Usually I can’t breath and I try to deceive my mind which is telling me “just try” but my heart screams “why?”

 

I tie up the finishing touches on another project I name “hesitation”

 

My work station is full of glue guns that drip fluids from prior flirtations and successful dated destinations

Backup blue prints of heartbreak reads castration and mutation in invisible ink

But those are never put into rotation

So I build when I’m building

To avoid any serious altercations

 

Remember I told you, walls are my specialty

Because walls protect special me

Because in reality this heart of mine is too big and divine to shine without some kind of designed protection

Affection is weakness in my wall’s designed projection

Connections?

I rather not

It puts my design plans up for inspection