The silence here is deafening
Paradoxical, I know
This void in your presence is still hard to swallow
I expect you around every corner
I’ve grown to do things here with your mannerisms and actions in mind
But time brings me back to reality
The table I must sit at, is one of reality
My chair legs are still tipple toppling away from the wooden corners and instead of joining the truth, I quickly walk away
It’s much easier to ignore feelings
To ignore the obvious
And only confront the truth when those feelings somehow escape the bowels of your belly and climb out your throat barreling face first into the world
Emotions
Emotions that create oceans of tears, of sobs , of thoughts you’ve locked away and things you’d thought you’ll never say
Emotions
I’m working on displaying, those emotions
But for now, I stay silent
Silent thoughts in my belly of an ocean